My post yesterday…on…Fear of Missing Out…brought up a fun blast from the past…with some of my friends…party lines…now…for those of you…who are too young…or…who were blessed with private lines in your area…let me explain…party lines…were sort of like our current extension phones…they were just in your neighbor’s house…usually about eight of them…
So…while…many of us…only had one phone our house…no danger of mom or dad…listening in…our neighbors…could…and…did…eavesdrop at will…often recounting every little juicy detail of our adolescent tête-à-têtes…at where else…the beauty shop…of course…
Now…I will say…I was fortunate…by the time I was into adolescent soul bearing…we had moved to an area with private lines…not so…for some of my friends who were in more rural areas of the county…
But…even without the party line…somehow…my mother always seemed to find out…exactly what I’d been up to…at her weekly beauty shop appointments…
I’m convinced…that she would go in and say…give me a quick shampoo and a set…and tell me…what Jane has been up to…her stiffly teased updo…a mere disguise…for keeping tabs on me…
All of this being said…because…I’m taking a bit of a vacation…it’s Spring Break…so…I’m taking the week off from writing…and…even though…I have lots of fun things planned…I’m a bit…afraid of missing out…I’ve not gone that long without blogging in a while…what will happen to my blog…if I’m not here…
Well…duh…nothing…that was Bertha’s answer…and…I know it’s true…and that’s what scares me…I’ll miss the feedback…I’ll miss the connection…I’ll miss the place in my life that my blog fills…
So…it’s a conscious decision…release the connection…release the feedback…allow other things to fill my life…breathe it in…relax…enjoy the other things life has to offer…but…it’s still unsettling…it’s still difficult…to give up…even for a few days…something that is part of my identity…even if…the break…will only make it better…
I’ll spend some time contemplating that…feeling…that fear…allowing it to evolve…doing the Forgiveness Prayer…for those parts of me where I feel afraid…
I feel better…already…
Besides…Bertha…says…not to worry…I can always go to the beauty shop…if I need to catch up…thankfully…some things…never change…
Jane
I love this... first - it IS a conscious decision. You're doing it because you need it to refresh and rejuvenate. Go for it. You're not giving us up... you're giving yourself a break - and that's what all healthy creativity needs :) We'll still be here...
ReplyDeleteAnd now - heeding my own words above, I'm giving myself a break today... been birthing a new venture the past few days and my brain is getting that frantic/can't stop/overwhelmed feeling... which means - I need a break. :)
Ahhh...Jenn...you understand so well...and...yes...when the frantic feeling takes over...it is definitely time...to regroup...refresh...relax...
DeleteHave an awesome....'re' day!
You would be so proud of me... I got off the computer yesterday, bought myself a book on my Nook (for iPad), and I spent the entire afternoon reading... ahhhhhh it felt so good!!! And, after a few chores and some checking in - I'll be doing more of that today... You inspired me to start reading for leisure again too... THANK YOU. I soooooo need it.
ReplyDeleteOoooh...Jenn...I am proud of you...I know you are having an incredible weekend...enjoy...refresh...
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