Mist on the Water…

I came across this passage…in my journal…yes…the one that I write in…that you aren’t supposed to see…but…I…thought it was worthy of sharing…

Mist on the water…evaporates into nothingness…water…seems solid…but…always…evaporating into mist…into air…into nothing…so it is in life…troubles appear solid…but…they aren’t…they are evaporating…first to mist…then to air…then to nothing…the mist is just the evidence that the evaporation has begun…no mist…it’s beyond that point…doesn’t mean it hasn’t started…

Interestingly enough…I don’t remember writing it…don’t remember exactly what triggered it…what emotions I was feeling that day…what issues I was having…but…I’m glad I found it again…I’m glad I reconnected with that part of me…that’s what I love about writing…I connect with pieces of myself…that I wasn’t aware of…and…then…I can put them together…in a new way…

Jane

With Two Cats in the Yard…

I did a little snooping yesterday…I checked out my neighbor’s house…now…don’t go calling the police…I didn’t jimmy the locks…or even peep in the windows…I just found it online…yep…it’s for sale…so…I found the listing and took the virtual tour…

What I found was…it is a lovely house…filled with bold colors…striking…beautiful…but…I wouldn’t want to live there…

I want to live in my house…

I love my house…I loved it from the moment I first walked in…with one exception…the walls were camel…the entire interior with the exception of the guest bath…was painted the same color…and…while…it was a nice color…very tasteful…very sophisticated…

It just wasn’t me…

For me…color is important…I can handle plain white walls…but…beige…AKA…camel…depresses me…I knew I could live here about six months…if that…before I’d be depressed…if I left things the way they were…

I’m a pastel kind of girl…

I immediately…began planning the colors I would paint…the living room…dining room…would be a pale turquoise…bordering on blue…the color that reminds me of water…the master bed and bath…a pale coral…almost pink…the color that reminds me of sunrise…the rest of the rooms…would remain camel…honestly…that only left the kitchen…guest room…and hall…I could live with that much…

I was delighted with my choices…and amused…when a neighbor came over as I was holding up paint swatches…and proceeded to inform me…that I wouldn’t like the color…which I thought was pretty funny…considering it was the same exact color I’d been living with for two years prior and loved…I must have given her a funny look…I don’t think she’s been back…

She wasn’t the only one…when I’d show the house to someone…and tell them I was going to paint…even if they didn’t object to the colors I’d chosen…they’d ask why…it was such a lovely color already…so neutral…so chic…so…them…

I’m not sure they understood…they also didn’t sign the mortgage…

So…here I am…not neutral…not sophisticated…not chic…but…I love my house…I love the colors that I chose…they suit me…they make me happy…

And…believe it or not…Bertha…says…it’s part of living my truth…honoring who I am…honoring what I need…who would have thought…paint color…could do all that…

Jane

The Sky is Falling…The State is Coming…

I’m beginning to feel like the proverbial Chicken Little…screaming…The Sky is Falling…The Sky is Falling…

Except I’m yelling…The State is Coming…The State is Coming…and running around like a chicken with my head cut off…well not really…but it sounded funny so I threw it in…sorry Chickie…

Unfortunately…unlike Small Chick’s fate…the state really is coming…it’s time for State Monitoring of our school system’s nursing program…

I think I’m ready…I’ve crossed T’s and dotted I’s…but…it’s still stressful…or worrisome…as we sometimes say…the thought of someone coming in to grade you…so to speak…what do they think…we’re in a school…

Well…yeah…maybe they do…hmmm…                       

Bertha of course…has some helpful suggestions for stressful times such as this…

First…get plenty of rest…

Next…drink plenty of water…

Last…get plenty of exercise…

Okay…I’m following her advice…here’s how it’s going…I’m drinking so much water…that I’m not getting any rest…but…I am getting some exercise going back and forth to the potty…

So…what do you think…two out of three…one out of three…geez…

Seriously…all is well…I think I am ready…I think I’ll do fine…I just wish they would hurry up and come and get it over with...

Jane